To my valued clients, staff and family,
I have a confession to make. I have been living a lie.
Well, here I am, once more trying to get stuff out of my head.
Lying in bed it all becomes clear. By the time I get downstairs, find I can’t login to the office, stuff around trying to figure that out and get interrupted by the dogs wanting to be let out, it all goes hazy, like a dream you can’t quite remember.
I’ve been told I can write well. The problem is, nobody seems to want to read what I write. I can’t get people to understand what it is that is important to me or get them to take any action over it.
There are discussions I need to have – finance discussions with my wife, forum/life discussions with my Dad, performance and expectation discussions with my staff but when I try, I just end up frustrated and angry.
I’m apparently high functioning ASD, ADHD, OCD and ODD. Which probably explains why I’m always overwhelmed.
The simple fact is, that, whilst I am functioning as a valuable member of society, it is only by ignoring my own needs. I am a wife and child financial support system and really nothing more. The day I quit work to focus on my health, fitness and mental stability is about 2 months before I become homeless and my wife and kids leave me for a shelter.